"Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God's grace in its various forms."

1 Peter 4:10

“How is Your Soul?”

Today I was once again blessed by the opportunity to gather with my LEAD team. A few of us pastors from our Conference get together monthly to read scripture, pray for each other, and talk about ministry. This morning, we spent some of our time together discussing how to deal with doubt. Not the doubt of the non-believers that we meet, or the doubt some new believers experience, or even the doubt in ourselves and our ability to serve. The question was asked, “How is your soul?” In response, we talked about the struggle we as pastors sometimes go through with doubt — a lack of faith/belief in what it is we are preaching.

Before you gasp or fall off your chair, I want to share with you that doubt is perfectly normal, even for pastors. Sometimes the doubt comes from the struggles we experience in our own lives, or because we see the pain that others are experiencing that we can’t fix and don’t always understand. Sometimes the doubt comes from the difficult questions that people ask, and we just don’t have all the answers. Sometimes, the doubt  comes from Satan himself, the father of lies, who is waiting for an opportunity to get ahold of us.

So, why am I sharing this with you? I am definitely taking a risk in being so open. But I think it is important for you to know that this doubt I occasionally experience, and maybe you do too, does not mean that I have completely lost my faith in God.

Faith is exactly that — faith! It is not always easy to accept what has been taught as Truth, especially when everything around you makes you have doubt. The problem is not our doubt. The problem is that we don’t always know what to do with it. How do we overcome it? How do we press on?

Fortunately for us, God is faithful, even when we are in a moment or a season of doubt. All we have to do is cry out to Him, and wait.

” I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.”  — Psalm 40:1-3

God doesn’t stop loving us when we doubt Him or question Him. His love for us is unconditional. When we go through seasons of doubt, that’s when He wants us to cry out to Him. He will hear our cries and reveal Himself to us.

I will continue to be faithful to Him, even when I experience moments of doubt. When I am unsure of what He is doing, I will cry out to Him and wait for Him to reveal Himself to me. I pray that you will, too.

This Easter Season, spend some time with Jesus. Take the journey to the cross with Him. Allow Him to ask the question, “How is your soul?”

Pastor Stef



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